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July 2, 2008 at 9:29 pm · Filed under miscellaneous and personal jabber
This amazingly magical road trip I’m going to be taking is a first for several reasons.
- I’m going to actually camp outside.
- It’s going to be my first real adult vacation that didn’t involve work.
- And it’s with “the girls.”
I mean, one of us is a guy, but he pretends he’s a girl.
I have never in my life related to more than one feminine personality at once enough to have “girls.”
My entire life, my friends in a vast majority have been male. Vast. We’re talking, before S and J, I’ve only had four women only I actually called my good friends, ever since like third grade when I realized chick “best friends” were drama queens and totally overrated. And those four women all have different personalities and come from different backgrounds in a way that I’ve never had more than one of them to myself at a time.
J is even pretty girly, but she’s got an amazing personality that envelopes that, so it isn’t all she is made of. S is feminine, but I wouldn’t call her girly, and she too, is fascinating and wonderful. Josh, whom I suppose I should count as one of my girls, is also much fun. He’s not girly, either, but his pocket knife is.
It just struck me as REALLY weird today when I was telling someone about my vacation, and they asked if Boyfriend was going and looked shocked when I said no. And I replied, “It’s just the girls.”
* Gasp *
Did I just say “the girls”?
I have “girls.”
I’ve never had “girls” before.
What an odd sensation.
June 30, 2008 at 1:07 am · Filed under miscellaneous and personal jabber
When you’ve been with someone long enough that your friends are all their friends, breaking up suddenly becomes ugly.
Two good friends of mine ended a long relationship recently and I feel myself pushed to almost choose sides; and not by either one of them, but by myself.
How can I willingly accept invitations to hang out with the guy when my heart actually lies with the broken-hearted woman?
I don’t think I can. She and I have had some heart-to-hearts about the whole thing and I feel like setting foot in his house would be a betrayal of her trust.
What makes it even more of an interesting conundrum is that my boyfriend is best buds with the guy. They call each other brother, since grade school days.
There’s another woman in the picture, and in order to protect the pieces of my broken-hearted friend, I ordered my boyfriend that if he finds out anything official about said other woman he’s forbidden to tell me. Because if she asks me again, and I know something, I won’t lie to her.
She asked me right after the break-up, and I could in honesty deny hearing any such things. And knowing all that I know now, and how hurt she is, I do *NOT* want to be the one to have to answer that question with more than an, “I don’t know.”
At this point in time I don’t think the guy did anything violating the relationship code, other than that she was out of town for school and he met someone and may have emotionally moved on in her absence. Even that I can’t really fault him for. I did that myself, once, a long time ago. There were some differences there– he was gone for a year and a half, not a matter of weeks– and I honestly don’t think he was still in love with me.
I’m a believer that as long as it isn’t leading you into territory dangerous to your emotional, mental, or physical health, you should follow your heart. And he seems to have done that. And I want to be happy for him and still be his friend, even if I think he’s a blathering idiot for giving up such a great woman after so long over someone he didn’t know that well at the time.
An invitation has been extended to boyfriend and I for an Independence Day party type thing, and I think I’ll have to let boyfriend go stag. The new girl is going to be there. I don’t want to know about any of it until my female friend has healed.
May 26, 2008 at 12:33 am · Filed under miscellaneous and personal jabber
I have over 9GB of photos on my hard drive now.
And having recently discovered the amount of control after the fact shooting in RAW gives me, I’m tempted to start shooting in it instead of JPG. What does that do to my file size? MORE THAN DOUBLES IT!
So. I made a new sorting structure for my mess of image files and started going through them. I am finding it ridiculously hard to part with them. I remember clearly every moment that every last one of them was taken, and it feels like I’m getting rid of something special. Even when the photo is of nothing of importance and isn’t particularly artistic, I am having difficulty letting go.
I’m going to have to get over it and learn to delete.
/ sigh
May 25, 2008 at 2:02 am · Filed under miscellaneous and personal jabber
I’m not very good at dealing with time.
I lose track of it. I forget it.
I often don’t even know what day it is. And I normally have to check multiple times within a single day, because my brain doesn’t seem to see that as something I need to know and therefore, remember.
My old job required me to always know the date and day of the week. So I did alright then. But it took less than a day or two of that position being gone before I was in the oblivion of constant checking.
I have both an old-fashioned calendar in my bag and have finally got myself actually using Google calendar, synced to my Outlook, to keep my personal and work life as organized as I can. I set reminders on EVERYTHING, in Outlook, and Google, because otherwise, times and dates creep up and pass without my attention and I miss things and forget things.
I looked over at my wall next to the desk just a moment ago and had to laugh. I have my bulletin board, and next to it, a calendar that I stare at often when I’m in deep thought.
It’s still on June 2007.
Shows you how much attention I pay. Ha.
I think I’m going to just leave it there.
June had a pretty picture in that calendar.
May 16, 2008 at 6:30 pm · Filed under miscellaneous and personal jabber
For a while now I’ve been pondering over the decision of what to do with my “economic stimulus” money.
Well, today was the day I would have been getting it. When it hadn’t yet appeared, I hopped on the IRS Website and used their Where’s My Moolah thing…
And realized…
That duh, with my parents still claiming me on their taxes… since it gives them a huge tax break I let them do so even though I’m actually financially independent other than sharing their roof…
I get no monies.
UPDATE: Want to hear something interesting?
My parents don’t get any money for me, because I’m over seventeen. I get no money, because I’m a dependent, despite the fact that I filed my own tax return with big enough numbers on there that I could have been in my own place the whole time.
And, it really sucks is for situations like one of my sister’s; she’s raising her bum best friend’s kids. There’s a son who just turned eighteen and graduates high school tomorrow. He doesn’t have a job. He’s truly a dependent. But he’s over seventeen… so does my sister get any money for him? Nope.
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